Thursday, January 22, 2009

So close......

I got up, pulled my buddy off of the shelf, placed it on the floor, and on it I went. 261, can you believe it............... After yesterday I deserved a little good news. That means 88 pounds since the beginning of this long ride.

Yesterday was a bad day. I started actual work on my new job and I got the dry heaves. sorry for those with delicate tummies. I was terrified that I would get dehydrated so I kept drinking and heaving, drinking and heaving. Finally around noon the pouch figured it had won. I was tired, drawn out, and just miserable. Don't know what I did wrong, whether Mr. Pouch decided that taking all of my vitamins and supplements in the morning was not to his liking or if I had accidentally ate something sweetened with sugar the night before or if I had the flu. By the time the kid called for me to get the grandson I was much better. I drank a bottle of water and a cup of tea.

Today I seem to be better. I have not had my protein yet. I found a new one. Cookies and cream and it is yummy. Very, very Yummy!!!!. Mix it with very, very cold milk and it is like having a milkshake.

The doctor is thinking around 165 will be my stopping spot so I have another 100 to go then. YIKES!

Stay warm and stay healthy.

Monday, January 12, 2009

A New Year and a Thinner Me.

Hard to believe I lived through the holidays and did not gain weight. That has to be a first in forever. Alright, it was not easy. I missed the goodies, the hot chocolate, hot apple cider, the eating snacky food, and the fun of making it all. Eating the holiday meal was the pits, although I felt wonderful afterwards.

I stepped on the scale today and I am at 265 pounds. I am melting before my own eyes. I have had some rough go of it. I was really ready to eat raw veggies and salad and it did not like me at all. Lots of cramping, felt crappy, and just miserable. Cut back on my eating and feeling much better. I think I have an incisional hernia, but they won't do anything with that until the weight is off and they do reconstructive surgery. (Not sure I want that, but I do have wings under the arms)

Support group has been great. I have had a chance to talk to others who have gone down the path or are going down the path that I am on right now. At first I did not think I wanted to go to that but now I am looking forward to it. I think you need people who can truly relate to the change you are going through.

I have been blessed with good friends and some family that are very supportive of me. I have learned from a friend whose sister had the surgery to be careful what you say to others. I guess the sister has forgotten what it is like to battle the food addiction and has been not thinking when she makes remarks. I can see where you might get carried away with saying some things about having to get new clothes and nothing fitting, I have done that. I think partially that is because it is so exciting to be down to a size that you have not worn in years. I don't want to hurt people's feelings so I will try to be very conscious of what I am saying to others.

Somebody asked me the other day if I would recommend the surgery to somebody else. I truly believe that is something that everyone has to decide on their own. It is not an easy journey. It is emotional. Some days you feel crabby. Some days you are on cloud 9 because you can walk for miles (a truly new feat for me). Every one has to make their own decision regarding the surgery, the life style change, the hard work, and the danger that also comes with it.

My first set of labs came back all good. Whew that is a relief for me. I have tried to be very faithful taking the daily doses that I am required.

Any way happy New Year to all and thanks for walking my journey with me.